I can't shrink into greatness. When I reflect on the things I've done and not done, there is a tendency to beat up on myself. I criticize, I judge, and condemn myself much more severely than the world could or would. In response to this self-flagellation, I shrink away from doing or attempting to do. I cannot shrink into my greatness ! I must use my past as a road map, a key, that unlocks my capabilities by giving me understanding of my frailties. The past simply tells me what I can do, cannot do, what I need to work on or work out.I must know every intricate detail of myself. My past is like an X-ray machine. Once I see what is there, don't shrink, shine ! Now I know, which means I can take appopraiate steps toward healing and correction. I won't fight with myself! I will accept who I am now and all I've done. Then I will give myself a great big hug and kiss. I've been through a lot. A little tenderness could be what I need right now.
I don't succeed at everything I try, and that's okay. What's important is that I keep trying. I am a good person, trying to do the best I can. I will remember this and be as nice to myself as I try to be to others. But hey, that's just me.
Kicking back having fun and keeping it real:
Very deep thoughts and wise words.
ReplyDeleteHowzit 'goin girl?
Hi PIC...hope everyone is in good spirits. How's Brian, still being hard-headed?
ReplyDeleteHope Nana's denist appointment went well.
Nothing hapeen today, still digging for stuff, it may be Wednesday before the metting, but the shit is heating up.
It's not storming , thank goodness.
ReplyDeleteBrian is a teddy bear today. Nana had a rough time. The doctor had to pull out pieces of tooth deep in her jawbone.She is in a bit of pain tonight.She can only eat mush right now and it has made her very cranky (of course).
ReplyDeleteSounds like you guys have a sea of papers to wade through.
Well it's been awhile since I posted something from the heart, the last time you put a picture of an angel with light and it was so beautiful, we got a comment about it.
ReplyDeleteI like the bear and cub on the sidebar...that's Gilly and me. hahaha
We got most of it in order, the whole bunch needs firing, no sense in not being able to file stuff away orderly when it's your job.
ReplyDeleteWhen Nana's mouth get better you better watch out, it's going to be hell to tell the preacher.
ReplyDeleteWe are having incredible weather here.Just love it.
ReplyDeleteOut in BC they still have snow.BC is another province in Canada.
Have to get Nana a mother's day present. I can't take her out to dinner, I brought her flowers yesterday and she threw them out. Said she was allergic to them. That narrows the field vis-a-vis gifts.
Do Nana like soft chococlates? get her a pretty scarf. I have been looking for something to get Sis, don't know what to get.
ReplyDeleteI hope that thing doesn't drag out so long that everyone gets pissed off.Dad might start packin a pistol.
ReplyDeleteI'm amazed no one had made contingency plans for when Dad retired.I mean he is over eighty years old. He ain't superman.
CSI:M is a turkey, I do believe they are getting worst if that's possible.
ReplyDeleteA scarf is a good idea. Why don't you get Sis a nice photo album and fill it with family photos?
ReplyDeleteIt's not possible for CSIM to get worse.
ReplyDeleteThey just found a way to contain that oil spill. They will drop a big cylinder over the well and then try to pump the oil out of the cylinder
ReplyDeleteDad's 82 and I guess they had the idea that Gil/Shirley/Leon was going to stuck with it.
ReplyDeleteGil's firm deals with the large corporations/casinos/hotels and the film companies.
They are capable of doing it but some of them will have to relocate
I'll try and get more info on the cylinder and do a post.
ReplyDeleteI bought my daughter a mother's day gift. I thought it was about time I told her how much I appreciate what a good mother she is. I'll send something to my other daughters too.
{giggles] I was tinking of getting her a pair of panties with a split in the seat, I have a couple of pair.
ReplyDeleteOh PIC that's so wonderful to give her a gift, she deserves it.
ReplyDeleteBut did expect anything less? You know she's a good mother.
I think you know and understand how much we both wanted kids and we was truly blessed.
ReplyDeleteObama was at the oil spill and said he was getting us help, so many people depends on fishing for a living.
ReplyDeleteI just thought of gift Nana would like, a bottle of vodka.
ReplyDeleteThe spill is actually a little bit smaller today. They think that some of the dispersement chemicals they put in the water are working.
ReplyDeleteYou know I think I know why Brian gets upset , he get discusted becauce he can't do the things he once did, but as his muscles heal he will be better.
ReplyDeleteVodka sounds good. Get it for her.
ReplyDeleteThe news said today the spill was headed toward Florida and big as Rhode Island. Don't know so many people is saying different things.
I know one thing, it's ruining a lot of coastline...but it will make a great post.
ReplyDeleteN.O. haven't snapped from Katrina now .
I asked Nan when she was going to join us and she asked me was we having trouble with blogger because when she come in lately, something alway go wrong and she don't have a virus on her PC because she has my lappy.
ReplyDeleteHow are you going to keep those kids occupied all summer??
ReplyDeleteThere is a new law in Canada. We have to get licences now to drive a boat. So we are all studying hard. I drove a boat all my life and never needed a licence.
Brian, Peter,Justin, and I have to take a test, shit.
I have had problems myself when I log on sometimes. I think at least some of the time it has to be Blogger.
ReplyDeleteI don't know, we are grtting them a wading pool and they will have the gym set/ treehouse which is only 3 feet of the ground.
ReplyDeleteI would like to go camping, they have some nice cabins on the Arkansas River.
The girls want to go to the diamond fields, I will find more to do this summer.
I know it's blogger, sometime I check and they will tell you when they are updating.
ReplyDeleteNan just wanted to know, because she didn't want to make trouble for us.
I remember my kids used to make me breakfast in bed on Mother's day. It was Godawful. They gave me tomato juice made out of ketchup and water and burned toast. Of course at that particular time they were only seven.
ReplyDeleteI told Nan to just stick her finger in her choochie and shut the hell up and she told Sis on me.
ReplyDeleteSis said, now NEE, thats not nice, the both of you talk to damn much.
That's the best breakfast you can have it's all love my darling.
ReplyDeleteI had a pickle sandwich last year and it had jelly on it.
A lady across the street...both her and hubby works and they do a great joj with their kids, it's the time you spend with them and make it count, now that's what matter.
ReplyDeleteI bet that was the best damn pickle sandwich you ever had.
ReplyDeleteNan wants to be the boss because she's 2 years older...we fuss and argue a lot but have never fought each other, we are afraid of what sis will do.
ReplyDeleteIt was the best... if Jill give me one this year I'm going to feed it to the little begger. Sha will be with Nan for Mother's Day, I keep her when she's in school.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad Jaye learned to cook a little better now. All five of our kids can cook well. In fact at one time Alan wanted to be a chef.
ReplyDeletePete is the best barbeque cook. We always trap the poor guy into cooking the meat. His brother Phil is a good cook too.Phil usually turns up back in Canada in May sometime . He spends every winter either in Texas or Florida where he has friends or he goes somewhere exotic. He can't stand the cold.
ReplyDeleteBy the way ,did you eat the pickle sandwich? I drank the ketchup and water.
ReplyDeleteI will be glad when Nan get her crap together so she can spend more time with Sha...Sha have asked Jill to spend the night with her and Jill says no, I'll see you when you come back, Sis only live about a hundred or so yards from me.
ReplyDeleteYes I ate the pickle and jelly sandwich and told her how good it was.
ReplyDeleteJayne will make a very good cook soon, tell her to try some of the recipes you put on the blog, they don't take long and very good and the boys can have all the sweets they want...Kids love sweets and now mine just eat all they want.
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like Jill doesn't like to spend the night away from you.
ReplyDeleteI hope Nan does free up some time for Sha,who is a beautiful little girl, by the way.
I have found that men cook better barbeque and they are better chefs.
ReplyDeleteOur men do the barbeque and we fix the fish and Chris will cook it and boy can he cook, I think Chris do most of the cooking in his house.
Jaye's cooking is either brilliant or it's a terrible disaster.You never know which one you're going to get.
ReplyDeletesha is very lady like where Jill is a tomboy..Sha play with dolls and Jill likes to rough and tumble. They say the only thing Jill has like me is my cheeks. And Jill is a little devil is jeans or overalls.
ReplyDeleteI just watched Crazyheart. I've had the video for a while but never found time to watch it.Anyway I thought Jeff's voice and guitar playing were pretty good.And he played the part well too.I didn't think it was brilliant though.
ReplyDeleteJaye is just a late bloomer, I haven't always been a great cook, it was by trial and error.
ReplyDeleteSis has the video and says he has done better work, but glad he finially got an award, he deserves it.
ReplyDeleteIt's funny how opposites attract. You would think that Sha and Jill wouldn't have much in common but they are inseparable.
ReplyDeleteMy men folks was just steak/patoto and pasta people, I told them I was gonna show them the good life.
ReplyDeleteHell you feed and you can't get rid of them.
Sha will get mad at Jill and tell her she's just being a brat and Jill will say, hey Sha , I'm a mean brat, later they will be alright....they no there's no hitting because I will get there musty butts, and I told them they can't outrun me.
ReplyDeleteI still think Avatar was pretty amazing.I bought the video to watch again at home sometime. I don't have a 3D TV though.
ReplyDeleteCameron is fucking brilliant.The CGI was amazing.He is so good at special effects. His plots are always simplistic though.
They might out-trick you though. They Sound like very bright little girls.You'll have to stay on your toes.
ReplyDeleteWhat a pleasure to watch those two grow and see the different directions they will take. Kids are unpredictable.Sha might like the law.
ReplyDeleteRemember the little boy they they got into it with, he's 8 and they whip his butt, now he's their best friend...Nan got the mom a job at the hotel and the hubby jumped on her again and she had him put in jail, and now he's doing hard time for drugs.
ReplyDeleteOh boy! That's good to hear. All these women need is a little self esteem and they get stronger. Getting her a job at the casino gave her the resolve to shake him off once and for all. Now that little boy will be a happier and better person.
ReplyDeleteSha wants to be a doctor at the moment, Jill wants to be a lawyer so she can sit on her butt and give orders like her daddy and talk on the phone.
ReplyDeleteHe saw his daddy beat his mama so he was going to beat my girls, but those little heifers are rough.
ReplyDeleteNan said before I got their they told him come on they will ride his musty butt like you do a horse in a rodeo.
It was misting rain and I fell my ass on the ground legs when up in the air, but I had on my shorts.
They both have wonderful aspirations. I hope they come true.Shayne is shopping for a good medical university. The best one is McMaster in Hamilton and that is the city they live in. He could live at home while he attends. that would make his mom and dad feel better.
ReplyDeleteI am looking forward to reading the post about the oil spill, a lot of time our news is the pits, and our Goveror is one weird dude.
ReplyDeleteI hope Shayne decided to stay close to home, it will take a lot of worry off his mom/dad.
ReplyDeleteHow is he doing? I bet Jordan is enjoying school and making a lot of new friends.
I don't have a 3D TV and not going to get one, none of their friends have one that I know off.
ReplyDeleteIt's a weird and wonderful thing that those three became friends.They might help each other in understanding the world. Typical of kids to make friends with someone who tried to beat the crap out of them
ReplyDeleteI think it's time to wind down.I'm going to make a delicious tea. I'm watching Morgan Freeman on Craig right now. Boy he has a lot of freckles.
ReplyDeleteHave you notice all your grands are going to university and the younger ones are going also. Not a dull moment ...be proud sweetie.
ReplyDeleteYou only have the 3 younger boys and Kim to go.
ReplyDeleteThose are not freckles..they are what black people call old folks moles.
ReplyDeleteYou have a goodnight sweetie and I will see you down by the Bayou when the moon come out.
ReplyDeleteGOODNITE...HUGS...LUV...PIC
Kiss the "ROCK".....Nite
I think Josh dropped out of college.I haven't seen him in months and his sister Samantha-Jean isn't out of highschool yet but I know she won't go any further.So they don't all do what you wish them to.
ReplyDeleteZach is in highschool. He has my immune disorder.Poor health can hold you back even though he is very clever.
Sleep peacefully and may you wake up to sunshine.I'll see you at the meeting. I'll be the lady under the table with a tape-recorder.
ReplyDeleteNight Sweetie....PIC