I miss you my friend.I hope you are being treated gently and with compassion.
You have an ordeal to go through.It will hurt you and shame you and make you want to give up.I understand.Endure it if you can.It will pass and you will find peace again.
You have so many more years ahead of you to find your place in the world,to discover why you are here.You are a good and worthy person.Tuck those words deep inside somewhwere and don't let anyone take them from you.
I always knew you were living on time that didn't belong to you,enjoying an uneasy freedom,looking over your shoulder.I knew it wouldn't last.I'm sure you knew also.Lately,I think you knew your stolen time was coming to an end.You seemed to grow a little more desperate.I felt you reaching out to me.
I think of you often,I hope and pray you survive this difficult time and I'm sending you strength and courage and dignity.I hope you receive them.
Goodbye Heidi.
My thoughts exactly Jeannie.
ReplyDeleteI like her as a human-being...she was a drownig scared persom,she needed help...not to be hound like a rabid dog....we both met her before we knew about a stalker,it was a better way to go about it.
She was sick,she needed help.We got a glance into her life in the end..maybe a little love may have made difference,no one really know what happen that faithful day when she saw DC..."GOODBYE HEIDI" will remember you fondly....NEE
She might get the help she needs.After all Austria is the place where psychoanalysis was invented.Although things have come a long way since Freud and there are many fine doctors there.
ReplyDeleteFreud thought the unconscious mind harboured the problems and held the answers.
He believed people used repression as a defense mechanism.Remember how she wouldn't talk about her family or what her mother had done to her.They might have to go that far back in her life to really help her.
But enough about her sad life.When do I get to see your family tree with all the madames and crooks on it.It sounds so exciting.Do you need any graphics for it?I'd be happy to help.
ReplyDeletePerhaps I can do something similar.
ReplyDeleteFor example,my granddad was a sea captain who owned some ships.He captained one of the ships and was gone for months at a time.His wife led him a merry chase.
Even my dad was an interesting guy.He was a colonel in the British army.He was sent to India to train their soldiers.He had some amazing stories.I'll have to get my facts straight and organized.
Now we can contiune to do what we started.Yes I would be so happy to have your help with the graphics,I love your jokes/cartoons,you have a great sense of humor..I will start now....not only was ther madames/bootleggers,there was aslso some that like to visit the slave quarters....sis has worked on this for a long time...my mama's family don't know to much.
ReplyDeleteOh yes I want to hear about your grand dad...your father being a colonel in the British Army.I bet he had some good stories..
ReplyDeleteSometimes,I think I was born at the wrong time in history...hell I am keeping it alive..."JEANNIE"this going to be one hellva good time.Sounds like you had some free spirits in yours also...I know you can tell sis grew up doing the flower child stage...she thinks with a very open mind,she says women have hid their feeling to long.
Dodo is copying off Vix...she post about some polish food...I hope those kids pictures give those whores nightmares...We seen the person that was sick....I wonder why they try to find all the stalkers...Paula A> killed herself about 2 blocks from Paula house.
ReplyDeleteIt's possible if she gets out on bail,she might check some of her blogs.
ReplyDeleteI know nothing of the laws in Austria.i have a feeling they are reasonably lenient.
She's smart start some more,I hope she gets the help she need..
ReplyDeleteI was her idea source and English teacher.She used my comments or parts of them all the time.
ReplyDeleteDodo really did not want to close her blog.
ReplyDeleteI have no clue how they know so much about what person should do.
ReplyDeleteLike Jaye said in so many words ..stop beating a dead horse.Hope they are happy ..Jeannie believe it ...nothing good is coming to them,it could have been handle better...
I saw the Polish recipe,sounds very fattening.
ReplyDeleteShe needed you...I for one was glad you were there...if not we would have never met...I think she liked for me to talk nasty.hahaha
ReplyDeleteone of the last things she said was choochie...stole from me...if she was me ,it was not stealing.
You went there yourself Nee.You see they still have Vixen's picture up there.For how long??
ReplyDeleteThat's right.She actually used the word 'choochie'
ReplyDeleteThey never tried to know her ,just beat her down..she is a better person than all of them...just ill.
ReplyDeleteI want you to write more I love your writing.It's so full of life and spirit and fun.
ReplyDeleteWrite about your kids,your hubby,your sis,adventures as a dealer,interesting people you have met.YOu have stories to tell.People will love them ,I'll love them.
ReplyDeleteThey want everyone to see and hear how they stopped a very dangerous person...I have not seen any death threats,shit you can put anything on the web.
ReplyDeleteWhen you have finished your family history.Put it in drafts so I can see it and I'll try to fit graphics to it.
ReplyDeleteI just started my madame post ,it's up..I asked Gil to help me word it right,he said no...it wouldn't be me....it's up now.
ReplyDeleteThe web is an open forum.Anyone can say anything,about anyone.That's why Vixen took advantage and made fun of DC on four or five blogs.Nothing illegal about that,just excessive.
ReplyDeleteI will put the others in drafts,I have one up,(GIGGLES) I write like Sammy/Jakey draw.hahahaha
ReplyDeleteoh,great.I didn't see it.I left my computer on comments.I watch for you.When I get a minute,I check computer.
ReplyDeleteHell she was smarter than them...I think she had 5/6...one on my space...it took a lot of those bitches to wear her down...hell they was coming out the wood work at her..she gave them a run for their money.
ReplyDeleteGil was right.
ReplyDeleteYour writing is full of energy,your own kind of spirit and personality.It's your trademark.I love it.He's right not to tamper.
Jeannie ..he says I can't write I can't talk but i sure can do the nasty.
ReplyDeleteI always knew it was an obsession with Vix,but don't you think that writing about it was a good way of venting?Not many people read it.
ReplyDeleteI tried to convince,once,to go talk to her mother.She hadn't seen her in years.She said she wished she could,but the hurt was still too big.
You have other talents too,but maybe 'the nasty'is one of your specialties.You can also make pretty babies,cook ,clean,run a house ,run a casino,sing,dance, play the piano,be a perfect hostess.I'm sure I've missed some.
ReplyDeleteOh,and you're saving the polar bears.
You also write great sories,You just don't believe it yet.
ReplyDeleteI meant stories.
ReplyDeleteJeannie I am here,got knock off
ReplyDeleteI guess I write the way I feel,God knows I say what I think and feel.
ReplyDeleteWe don't have a technical bone between us.I don't know how we're going to stay on the net,without you or I throwing the whole works into cyber space.
ReplyDeleteThe put down by CD was what did it for her....It's a bad thing when your own mama don't want you,,perfer a man over you.cater to the other two,
ReplyDeleteHA!..It's just so funny,you and I running a blog and not a geek in sight.You ain't afraid of trying anything,are you honey.
ReplyDeleteWell one thing for sure we have each other's e-mail...Jeannie come hell or high water,we are going to do this....
ReplyDeleteAin't it fun....we might make a mess we will learn .
ReplyDeleteNope ..the only thing/person I don't mess with is sis...she's always telling me she is going to whip my musty ass...
ReplyDeleteJeannie(GIGGLES) I write like Sammy/Jakey draw....I know you were proud of Shayne.
ReplyDeleteSis is a wise woman,but let Gil spank you.It's more fun.
ReplyDeleteYou two are so much a like...she has always been there for me,she never remarried ..they just want her,she has three kids, all older than me
ReplyDeleteOnce in the thrall of passion,Brian said,"abuse me",so I slapped his face.It hurt him so much it brought tears to his eyes.When he got over the hurt,we both started laughing so hard,it killed the mood.We got up and had a cup of coffee.
ReplyDeleteI was proud of Shayne.I think he may do great things.He wants to be a pediatric surgeon.I guess he wants to help kids like himself.
ReplyDeleteI will leave them in draft...I have a million of them....how I caught my ex.ass up in the air,he yelling to the woman to run...when Gil introduced me to one of his ladies,I was pregnant with Jill..my sister's husband the peeacher.I have a lot of them
ReplyDeleteI still haven't told the story of Zach,the third grandson who was born with a rare illness.
ReplyDeleteThat story will be hard on me,because I've lost contact with him.He is Alan's son.
I would love to hear the story of your ex with ass in the breeze.
ReplyDelete(GIGGLES) I got angry at Gil,slaped him,he took his belt off and whip my ass,he said I act like a child ,that's what I get...Jeannie he hurt my feeling,I never slaped him again
ReplyDeleteI'll tell the story of the time a police officer came to the window of the car during a very intimate moment.Today I may tell about the time a bear chased me.
ReplyDeleteIf someone hit me with a belt and meant it.It would be the last time he touched me.Of course it hurt your feelings.I hope you're okay with that now.
ReplyDeleteI hope Alan will realize he needs his family...there is nothing so bad in a family that can't be ironed out...a mother love is always there no matter what a child do.....all women that have children is mothers.
ReplyDeleteAt such a young age Shayne know where his life is headed...good for him
ReplyDeleteOur door has always been open,but maybe he doesn't know that.It's very hard.None of us can stand his wife.
ReplyDeleteHe gave me a couple of licks they didn't hurt..I pretend it hurt so bad...I didn't give him no choochie for a week,boy can he beg,I got all kind of stuff..
ReplyDeleteShayne is a straight thinking guy.Very direct.His sister Jordan is very bright too.I think she wants to teach handicapped children.
ReplyDeleteShe should be trying to make peace,she is probaly glad...I hate women like that...do she have family?
ReplyDeleteWant to hear about the bear/policeman.....I know we have good stuff...Nan keeps me up on them when she think it is something I need to know.
ReplyDeleteI am not surprise all your family thinks about others and how they can help....I really think it is in the genes.
ReplyDeleteI guess you got Gil's number.You know how to work it.
ReplyDeleteYes,we can dig up some good stories,throw in a little news item now and then.
I have hundreds of graphics and jokes.
ReplyDeleteSometimes I'll even draw something if my eyes are not bothering me.
ReplyDeleteThere are those in every family...one of my nephews married an afro/america girl..she is o.k. I guess she told him she couldn't stand me,I have a few in the family she don't like them either.
ReplyDeleteSome in our family are helpers .Some are mathematicians.They sort of keep to themselves.Some are just free spirits.
ReplyDeleteI don't care what you put on mind,yes I got his number....People said Gil got a young woman...Jeannie he has never been married....He says he has never lived with a woman...I know by his ways/actions he loves me,he will be 55 in april I will be 41 in june..I need an older man.
ReplyDeleteIsn't it strange that some people just don't like you.Even if you try your damndest to be nice to them,
ReplyDeleteOh,for sure Gil loves you.He couldn't live without you now.You would probably be amazed at how much control you really have.
ReplyDeleteIt's fun being a free spirit...you live longer and more happy...
ReplyDeletethose old prudes will get there jollies now...I believe the read every comment...most come to read the posts and look at our pretty pictures.
Jeannie ,I don't try to hard,I will go a little ways, I have to let you know where I stand,I am not pushy..nor will I be pushed.
ReplyDeleteNee,I'm pretty sure we get visited quite regularly by the loons.They look for something they can take back to headquarters and dissect and discuss.Not much else for them to do now.
ReplyDeleteNice to know you're not pushy..HA!
ReplyDeleteI think I'll go read your post and see if I can write something too.I have to stories of encounters with bears.
ReplyDeleteWell they will get an eye/ear full..at least we have something going on in our lives.
ReplyDeleteIf Dodo's going to continue her blog,she's going to have to make it a little more interesting.Duuull
ReplyDeletePolish recipes?Give me a break.
ReplyDeleteI know for sure my man wouldn't let me stalk someone like they did.Gil say more than likely they will put her in the hosiptal.All she has to to do is say she is insane.Play crazy a couple of months and she is free to roam some more.
ReplyDeleteNow,some nice,spicy,Louisiana dishes would delight the senses
ReplyDeleteJeannie I have a lot of those ..I am a good cook I have pictures for them Dad loves gumbo....
ReplyDeleteOh Vix definitely needs psychiatric help.She is not well.she needs to be in hospital for quite a while to get to the root of her unhappiness.She knows how to repress all her bad memories and act very normally and rationally.She was a great mom and got involved in community activities.She also had a good job.
ReplyDeleteI have an lemonade party cake recipe I doctored up....It a cake mix I put my special spin on it ..you are full of ideas.
ReplyDeletePut some recipes up on the blog Nee.That would be fun.
ReplyDeleteI would love to see pictures of you and the babies.You could put them in drafts.no one would see them but me there.
ReplyDeleteThat is so true..They want Vix to go to prison....Gil says their laws are not as harsh as ours,He says they should want the best for her,they know she's ill...you take a dog to the doctor to get it well..she is a human being.
ReplyDeleteJaye needs a recipe for the twins birthday cake on April 5th.her cakes aren't the best.
ReplyDeleteI will put some in so you can see my bad babies.you know Jill calls you aunt Jeannie
ReplyDeleteI think Keyser said their law system was not as harsh.That's so good to know
ReplyDeleteI learned how to make them from mixes...they taste homemade...Gil' BD is the 4th april Jill's is the 10th of april....I will put it up tomorrow...you can do any cake.
ReplyDeleteoh Nee ,that would be great to see some pictures.
ReplyDeleteYour party cake.Would it be good as a birthday cake for the boys??
One thing for sure she was smarter than all those crazy bitches together....
ReplyDeleteWell it's lemon I will put up the one I use and she can dress it like she wants,people will think it's homemade,she don't have to tell them I don't.
ReplyDeleteSammy loves cake.He's getting a bit of a pot on him.Good thing he's playing hockey right now.He runs and swims it off in the summer.His favorite thing is swimming off the boat.
ReplyDeleteI looked up your lake.You have ""alligators"" in it
ReplyDeleteWE go to a little lake but its great for swimming
ReplyDeleteI will finish unpacking my boxes,and get my stuff out..I can put some in draft,the weather is so hectic I just haven't been in a hurry....I still haven't brought my living room suite,I got the dining room crap..large family room,I use Gil's study..hahaha
ReplyDeletewe have a little barbeque on the boat.Pete,my son-in-law is a great bbq cook.
ReplyDeleteTake your time with your home Nee.You have to live with it for a long time
ReplyDeleteI saw a few houses in your lake area,very posh,very pricey.You will probably stay there a long time.The kids will grow up there
ReplyDeleteYes we have gators...We have a fence all around the back....we have about 300 feet frontage I think..we also have Red River between Shreveport/Bossier City...The casino is next to the bridge...Barkdale Air Force Base
ReplyDeleteThey are nice,Gil/dad have sold everything in Reno,hoping to get out of this one soon...Yuo might have seen mine....we got it at a bargain pice market down.
ReplyDeleteA lot of water near you,must be humid.Good thing you have such thin blood.
ReplyDeleteGet some rest honey.we'll talk some more.Sleep tight.
some say gil acts like he don't have money...he says it is no act..his dad do and he is giving all his to his grands.
ReplyDeleteBail???
ReplyDeleteEven Austrian doesn't grant bail to a flight risk. She's run twice ladies. Do you think they'll pat her on the back and let her run a third time? And succeed in killing Caruso? Your friend is headed for the slammer and not a moment too soon.
Have a good nite Nee
ReplyDeleteThanks for the visit anonymous...
ReplyDeleteYolanda go find something to fuck...
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ReplyDeleteWhy do you leave this bile up? There should be a rule that anonymous comments by cowards posting from Houston TX are subject to deletion.
ReplyDeleteFrom the way some people go on about this, it would appear that in addition to narrow minds, they have thin skins. Must be that some of the blows landed on them hurt! Poe widdle babies.
I bow my head (virtually) in front of two such great people. The net knows very few of you....I am honored to have known you and have been able to share one or two thoughts with you.
ReplyDeleteBetween all the rubble lies trhe truth. One has to digg very deep to get through to it.
Thank you ladies.